i am moving this summer to a place that doesn't have an ikea, and while i am currently not with child (yet, hopefully very soon) i am going to go ahead and buy everything for a nursery before i leave. my husby think i'm being a little insane but you know, i've had my eye on certain toys, textiles, and furniture for a baby room for months now and my mind is set and ikea doesn't do online shopping! ;)
for weeks now i have been hearing about this home that does this fantastic light show to music and on top of there being thousands of lights, they had a projection of santa come into the window and wave after every song. so unreal, so tonight after dinner, we decided to finally go and it was everything i expected and more! coco was so sad when we had to leave, he made me promise i would bring him again before they shut down for the year.
oh my gosh, i just got news that we are moving this summer to the last place on earth i want to move to (i am not at all a fan of the sun/heat), but i don't want to announce where yet because it could still change to somewhere else. regardless i am going to make the best of it! i am a little nervous about the move because while i've moved plenty as an adult, it was only to familiar areas. so many steps must be taken! this is exciting eeps!
coco and i decided to make some salt dough ornaments this morning, i've never made them before. usually i make the apple sauce ornaments but these were fun to paint, we haven't finished painting though so i will definitely post a part two. recipe taken from here.
the decorating process started just a little!
it was very simple and fun, i'm thinking of doing another batch, only doubling it since i don't think this one made enough and gifting them to the grandparents.
:: a gift from my mother, a book listing household hints, printed in 1937. i am obsessed.
:: coco and his kitten, brobee.
:: holiday tea! the gingerbread one is amazing.
:: me and pkitty
:: a shot of the bakery case from one of my favourite eats in dc, sticky fingers.
if i had to marry any celebrity it would be without a doubt, bill paxton. now while i do swoon over other men in hollywood, such as ian somerhalder (damon from the vampire diaries) and charlie hunnam (jax from sons of anarchy)... my heart lies with bill paxton. when i was a little girl, my mother would watch the movie aliens all the time and that is when i first spotted him and from there my interest grew, even in weird science because he made me laugh. i absolutely love his voice, and i love the gap in his teeth, i even love his body language. luckily in recent years he was all over my tv when he was starring in big love (one of my favourite shows) see, look how good he would look next to me hehe
i don't tend to post personal thoughts things on here, but i want to get something off of my chest, so here goes. i have always had faith, faith that everything happens for a reason, faith that everything eventually works itself out, faith that if i am a good person with pure intentions that i will be okay after death, whatever awaits. i've never been a religious person, spiritual but no religious. my mother is a non practicing catholic and my father is a curious buddhist. throughout the years i have done plenty of research on all kinds of religious beliefs, just taking bits and pieces from each one that fit me and made the most sense. i've always believe in a god, just not the bible per say, there are a lot of things that still don't make sense to me and something always keeping me from fully believing. and seeing a lot of really mean people be so religious doesn't help steer me in that direction either.
lately i've been feeling something. i'm not sure what, but lighter and happier. more at peace, and i've been thinking more about jesus and how my core beliefs and moral compass and the way i feel that i always do the right, and honest thing really do match up with someone who is religious. i feel like i might be on the path to truly accepting jesus into my heart as they say. one of the biggest things weighing on my mind is that i cannot imagine a time where i wouldn't know and see coco. it is physically painful for me to think about that and if i reincarnate, sure i'll 'know' him but not as my son, and he won't be the same. if i die and theres nothing than we will never see each other again. i have to believe that there is a heaven where i can still be with my son every day when the time comes. i don't want to even consider another future. i'm not sure what the next step is, i know i have to take baby steps but i have already begun, and it wasn't me that pointed my feet in that direction.